Some Personal Thoughts

One thing I know about myself that I'm not particularly proud of is that I struggle with being a "people pleaser." Because of this I have been in a bit of an identity crisis within my business lately.

I can look at where I started when I worked for a major weight loss chain and where I am right now and I can see all of the transformations. I see how I've guiding my actions toward a more "Christ-Centered" approach, which is truly where my heart is. Lately I have questioned sharing from this perspective. I asked my husband the question this morning, "Do you think I'm turning into a Tom Cruise?" He laughed and asked me what the heck I was talking about? What I meant by that is Tom Cruise, in my opinion has worked hard to become a serious actor. He has accomplished that by the many masterful performances that he has rendered, but within the last few years he has become a bit radical with his personal beliefs and has had his fans begin questioning whether they could handle that. He became somewhat fanatical and unrelatable. I wondered if I was going too far into a spiritual arena and becoming unrelatable to those of you who read my newsletter. I worried that I would lose you because I was taking this stance. Ultimately, I wanted to make everyone happy and I was concerned I was alienating many of you.

Maybe you can see why this nagging thought was becoming a giant wall in front of me. For the last week and a half, I've struggled with what to write for my newsletter. I have been praying to God each day to help me with a topic. I kept wanting it to be a less spiritual approach and a more motivational one, for the reasons mentioned above. Still, nothing would come. This morning, I pretty much had a desperation talk with Him. I said, "You have to give me a topic, Lord!" The thoughts I received in my mind were not what I expected. I was shown that I was writing from the wrong heart. I was writing to please you. I was making all of you more important than the guidance I have been getting from the Lord.

I know that deep down in my heart, I need to teach from the promptings I feel directed. When I do, I sense the power in that. There are forces of darkness that do not want me to teach this way. These persuasions are to have me believe that I will be rejected for speaking from this perspective. While I know that I will turn some of you off, I also know that others aren't. In this world we can't please everyone (which I have struggled to understand). All we can do is live in such a way as to bring love and wisdom and possibly receive and give understanding. This is my objective when I write these newsletters.

I know that not everyone is where I am and I'm okay with that. My will is not to force my viewpoint on anyone!!! My hope is to impart what comes to me as I search my scriptures and read the variety of books that help me grow. If I do this correctly, then maybe I can help others to grow internally and find peace within themselves and with their bodies. I want to respect everyone with their beliefs and religions! I also want the same respect in return. We all can receive light from one another if we truly respect each other and what we all have to offer. I don't want to make you be like me anymore than I want you, to make me, be like you. This is why I offer you my thoughts and allow you to click the delete button or not. If you take the time to read what I write, then I hope I help you with my form of wisdom. This wisdom I speak about, I do with a great sense of humility. God allows us to grow in wisdom and I pray for more of it everyday. I still misunderstand so much, but I just keep trying to learn and understand more, while I make mistakes. With all of this being said, my hope is that you will feel the sincerity of my words. That you will continue to indulge me in this open forum. That you will stay open to learning and that you will be uplifted by my messages. God knows that my heart is dedicated to helping all of you with a heightened understanding of the spiritual power that you have to overcome the power of your flesh (your body). We all have the power to accomplish this in our lifetime!

Thank you for taking the time to read what's been happening in my heart! I feel confident that I will have your next newsletter to you within a few days :)

-Heather